I am so ridiculously stressed out right now. It's almost the end of the school year, and because I've been sick so much, I am struggling immensely to catch up. I need to get my grades up before the end of the year so that I can have a GPA of at least 2.5 to get into PSEO. 

I don't even really want to go PSEO. I don't want to move. I want to graduate with my class and I want a senior year. I feel like there are a few deserved times in someone's life, senior year being one of them. But every time I bring it up with my mom she says, "It's a free year of college. You're going."  

I just feel like crying because even though I have so much stuff that I have to catch up on, I can't work up the motivation to do any of it. I literally can not bring myself to start working and it sucks because the longer I put this stuff off and the longer I don't do my homework, the more stressed out I am. I feel like I'd want to do college more if my mom wasn't pressuring me into it.

On top of that I have to get all of my homework for next week because I'm getting my tonsils out and do all of that. 

I also have to find a new car because I'm not going to live in Duluth with a manual. Hills suck with a stick. 

I have to pack for the move. 

I'm not ready for all of this.

I just want to be a kid again.