I'm a bitch.
I'm a bitch because I'm honest. I tell people how I feel, and what needs to be said even if it's not the easiest thing to say. Sometimes it's the hardest thing to say and I say it anyway because they need to hear it.
I only see the bad in things, and how things actually are. It's hard for me to see the positives in things.
But despite my extremely large character flaws, I still have some close friends.
I do my best for them. I listen to them no matter how hard it is sometimes, and I give the best advice that I can. I do things for people that no one would ever do for me, and it just gets hard because I give and I give and I give and I never get anything back. I never hear a "You're an amazing person and friend and I'm lucky to have you in my life". I never hear a "Thank you for everything you do for me." and that's all I want.
I just want someone to tell me that they appreciate me. I want someone to feel lucky that they have me in their life.
I just want a hug. Someone to hold my hand. Or tell me these things. Not even in a romantic way per say.... just as a friend. Someone that I can rely on, and don't feel like they hate me.
I'm lonely and I just need a friend.